It was a little more than year ago when I visited Seattle my friend Dan with the idea that I would write an article about it. The article didn’t get published. I decided to edit and post it, with added commentary from an older, wiser self currently residing in Seattle. It’s like I’m reviewing myself!

The Friends You Already Have at Home [Hah!]. (Or, Wasted in Seattle.) [accurate]

Dan and I figured that if nothing else, we were going to get wasted—at least we hoped we would. Well, we did that. According to my calculations, we were sober for about ten hours of the six days. I’ve pieced together a guide to Seattle. It is split into sections.

[I think that I sound pretty lame in the above paragraphs. I think the above needs something called a "lead". I learned that by wiki-ing "journalism style". What happened here is that I expected an interesting narrative to pop out at me after looking through notes. Then I started transcribing the notes and said "fuck it". This is a common problem for me. This is why I gravitate towards certain schools of contemporary poetry. This is why I've written < 2 somewhat successful prose pieces. ]

Getting Around

Seattleites are friendly [more like polite ] but they don’t seem to have any sense of direction [OMG so true]. Or at least the ones I asked for directions on my first night in the city. If you can at least figure out which bus to take, the driver will help you out. You’ve got no choice but the bus, since there’s no subway. Word is that they’re putting together an integrated light-rail system [this has since happened and it stops nowhere I want to be. Actually it might run up Capitol Hill which would be sorta sweet], whatever that means, sometime in the future. Be ready to get really fucking lost. Dan and I spent two hours trying to get to Capitol Hill (I think) to get to the first bar of our gay barhopping night (don’t ask)[I won't tell; it's really really really funny seeing places we visited on our lost ramble, now knowing where they lie in relation to the Hill]. Apparently “go up the hill” and “go down the hill”” do not work for finding your way in Seattle [This actually does work for certain hills].

Getting Going

We went to the Space Needle. We went about as far as a block away; it was raining so we were like, “ok we saw it, let’s have a beer”. I made a point to visit the central library. It’s huge, magnificent [that library scares the shit out of me. I do not think it was made for humans], and will probably make you very sad that here in Philadelphia the trend is to close libraries. [what am I, five?]

Golden Gardens is a long bus trip (from the Central District) and walk down a steep wooded path to a beach on Puget Sound [I visited this again with my family when they came out. Did not disappoint. I also had no clue that we had crossed water and ended up in Ballard]. People were burning old Christmas trees in a fire pit on the beach.

Pike Place Market is surprisingly not a waste of time [still true]. I wanted to do a number two but when I found the toilet it was smeared in number two so I decided I could hold it.

We visited what our guides call “Johnny Cash” beach. It’s not really called that, and I don’t know what body of water it faces [the name of the beach is Howell beach; it is a clothing-optional beach. This beach was better during the summer; I think it's on lake Union]. On the way back, we stalked around what our hosts told us was Kurt Cobain’s house.

Getting Wet

It rains in Seattle [fuck yes it does]! My flight into the city was cloudy with 90 percent chance of waiting half an hour for the bus with all my shit that got soaked in between the airplane and the airport [holy shit did I actually write that]. And then it rained more, flooding I-5 and cutting Seattle off from Olympia and Portland. Even native Seattleites [still unclear on this] commented (maybe for our benefit) that it was rainier than usual [Seattle is apparently on average rainier than it was in the last century or something like that. The municipal street drains can't handle it. My basement can't handle it. It blows]. The weather held out the rest of the week—we even saw sky! But only when dark out.

Getting Friends

Comparing Seattle to Philly, Greyson told me that Seattle people are more open; friendlier [HA; cf. Tao Lin, "Seattle Lies"]. On the other hand, she sees Seattleites as more similar to Philadelphians than Portlanders(?) [seems like Portlanders are the best.] or Olympians. Dan said that he liked hanging out with kids who had “a similar mindset”; that it was like hanging out with friends he already had. I think it was a bit like if a better dressed West Philly completely shut down and collectively decided to have drunken sledding party in response to snowed out roads (this actually happened the week before we arrived) [this is far from true. This may be a result of observer effect or whatever. The week we were in Seattle was an exception in terms of people's friskiness and general willingness to 'rage']. Where else would a night at the bar turn into an arm wrestling tournament? where Dan comes out as champion? [I wish I still had the pictures]

Getting Rid of Cash

We went to three record stores.

Getting Food

You can get meal for ten or less easy. That’s before beer [and 10% sales tax]. This is where we went: Glo’s Café, Pagliacci (pizza and draft beer!), 5 point (diner and beer!), some random spot in Golden Gardens, Meskel (Ethiopian), which happened to be down the Street from Greyson’s house. Ballet (Vietnamese) marked the end of an all-day collective hangover on Saturday [I ended up visiting Ballet again after walking it off from Belltown. Seems like this place was made for me.]. You can get beer at most restaurants here [DUH]. Bill’s off Broadway was the jumping off point for the night that ended in the all Saturday hangover. All of these places, excepting Meskel and 5 point [and the spot on Golden Gardens], are on Capitol Hill [actually, Pagliacchi was in the U-District].

[Funny story. Looking for a place to eat or drink Dan and I passed this place called "The Comet Tavern". We peeked in but decided that we would get our asses beat if we went into that bar. I don't know why we thought this.]

The Twilight Exit [since moved to 26th and Cherry], was our first stop after waiting for Dan to Greyson’s house. Nothing helps you beat jet lag like a frosty can of Olympia beer. Or seven. [wow. I should write for AAA, or maybe for Vice when their target audience hits 45]

Getting Your Face Melted

We went to a show in Beacon Hill [at Monstersorri] and saw Filth Mattress, members of which we had been getting drunk with for the past week. Pipsqueek opened; they were a folk-punk thing with acoustic guitar and cello/violin [wait. I fucking hate ________-punk.]; they’re from Olympia; they barely got there thanks to the flooding. I bought Grass Widow’s CD, because they are awesome [feel ahead on the curve on this one. Wish I could get 'mad cred' for this]. I fall in love with girl bands. I don’t remember the name of the last band.

Getting PARTY

One of my favorite surprises was going out for pizza and realizing that they had beer on tap—good, cheap beer on tap [why italics? I can't believe how blown away I was, but you know what? I was. However, I have since learned that Washington has the most insane liquor laws in the nation. Fuck. Seattle is a city where the bars call closing time at quarter after one and are shoving you our the door at half past.] What the fuck Philadelphia? There seems to be no minimum for using your credit card [except for the Cha Cha], which is awesome. You can get wine and beer at gas stations (I know you can do this just about anywhere that isn’t PA/Philly), and our hosts were shocked to hear that we couldn’t do the same here in Philly. What the fuck Philadelphia? Oh, and beer’s cheaper, consistently five bucks for a sixer of the PBR-line [depending on neighborhood]. $9-11 for a  six-pack of nicer beer at 7-11 [No malt liquor. Looking back, I feel like this lack of easily accessible malt liquor may have significantly improved my life].

There were several pictures; all of which were lost in the great ibook meltdown 0f 2009, which I will interpret with words from memory:

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2009.01.08

4561 Yes, I watch Dan while he sleeps.

Dan asleep

Feet uncovered

Under a plaid patterned sleeping bag

He sleeps on mattress cushions

They have been removed and laid out on the floor

In the foreground there is a coffee table, surface unseen

4562 Dan wakes up, realizes I watch him while he sleeps.

He looks somewhat confused and maybe violated

He is still wearing his hat

4570 Greyson waits for Ezra and John to get homebrew stuff.

She hangs out of the open door of an econovan in black pants and beanie

She is stick thin

4571 Dan and Greyson wait in the van while I take shitty photos.

Outside is washed out and gray

4576 Waiting for the bus. The last one passed us without stopping!

Outside is washed out wet and gray

4586 This library is huge.

Large concrete wall

Microsoft auditorium

4601 Ok we saw it let’s go drink.

Space Needle is boring

4602 Ok we saw it let’s go drink.

Space Needle is still boring

4604 Miniburgers and ‘tots at 5 Point.

Recently, a friend of mine appeared in the Stranger

He was at the 5 Point anniversary

Mouth full of fries

2009.01.09

4626 Dan picked some tunes but I don’t think they ever got played

This is a jukebox

This is a jukebox

Twilight I miss the pool table

Ping Pong is cool I guess

4633 Dan versus Ezra

He is very strong

4634 Dan’s alter-ego, “BroDan”, is winning.

He knows and smiles

Like he is strong

4635 BroDan for the win!

He knows and thus he

Is proud like

He is strong

4639 Greyson took this one. Just about sums up the night.

Flash

Finger

Thumb

Fuck!

4642 Greyson and…I forget her name.

Her name is Ren—she gave me a job

Which I lost

4643 BroDan takes on the line cook at Twilight Exit

Backwards hat

For the win

Sorry Mom

4656 The sky was always like this. Surprise!

It is overcast

4662 Mountains!

Booyah

I can see Rainier from the street intersecting with the one upon which my house lies

Rainier [not pictured]

4666 Records! (Zion’s Gate)

Yes, you can buy records

Her you can buy

2009.01.10

4691 I CAN’T HEAR YOU (80’s Night at Neighbors)

Gays jus’ wanna have fun

Sometimes I stand outside Linda’s where everyone seems very concerned with having a good time

Or appearing to have a good time but not really making the cut and

From there, outside of Linda’s

I look up at R Place and see waving arms and a disco ball

Gay people party like this (torso and hip motion)

And straight people party like this (torso and hip motion)

Pony has strobe lights in Men’s bathroom

Wish I were gay

Maybe I can try

4702 Dan is a handsome man.

Yes he is

4762 They have this here fish on a string. They use it to scare the shit out of kids at Pike Place Market.

Avoid coke laced

With Levamisole

(Deworming.)

4770 Obligatory Picture of Street Art in McJawn Article (Nike Store)

A penis or something

Seemed clever at the time

4772 How did we get so drunk last night?

Alcohol

4281 I don’t know maybe it was my sweater.

No it was not

2009.01.11

4817 Kurt Cobain’s House

It was dark out

Did y’all watch Last Days?

Love you Kim Gordon

I guess

4828 John and Delicious Soup

Satay

Vomiting water, a day!

Way on the walk up remembered a jaeger bomb

(Sorry Mom)

Pho

Than Brothers is also good

4838 Dan vomits posters before show (Beacon Hill)

A revoir scene!

2009.01.12

4820 Hang In There!

Advice to Seattle from Dan:

Do go Kurt Cobain on me

I called shotgun

Which makes you

Kurt Cobain

Too soon?

4873 Water!

Water!

4876 Water!

More Water!

4884 This is where beer comes from.

Wondering what this is a picture of

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along the bank of the frozen river Томь (Tom)

This photograph was successfully taken after walking through waist-deep snow in order to reach the river bank where the snow was actually somewhat packed and therefore easier to walk upon. I had ended up at this place because I had recently found Ljubisa on the street. Found? I was walking home from work one day when I saw a man who ‘was looking around like he was new’. He also had a suitcase/was wearing a northface jacket and therefore looked ‘decidedly not Russian’. I decided to tail him slightly, just for a few seconds, in order to figure out his ‘deal’. Using my extremely sneaky stalker-esque skills (don’t know why I’m admitting that) I noticed that the book in the pocket of the suitcase he was pulling behind him somewhat clumsily (snow/ice/slush everywhere) was definitely not printed in the Cyrillic alphabet.

Then I walked by him, all whilst trying to decide whether I should say something to him, or at least offer my help. Finally decided it would be better to ask. So, in what was probably a ‘decidedly creepy move’ (apparently I like the word decidedly today) I made an about face, walked up to him and asked him “Do you need any help?”

Further inquiry led me to find out that he was a photographer from Paris, on the last leg of his trip to take photographs of Russia/the Taiga/Wilderness/Open spaces. He had come to Tomsk in order to see ‘what all the hype was about’. We hit it off very well, met some friends at a cafe and from there it was decided that he was to stay at my apartment instead of at a hotel. What followed were two very lovely days of showing him various empty type places in Tomsk for him to photograph (his are better than mine above). Sometimes it’s good to talk to strangers.

PS – His name was Ljubisa Danilovic (a decidedly slavic name [Serbian]). You can find his photographs here (I like them)

Granted I did edit this photo somewhat, but the sky is actually the same color as the ground these days.

sorta looks like you’re wearing ‘fashion lederhosen’. I’m sorta sad that I probably couldn’t ‘pull off’ that look.

(No subject)

I knew a guy who only had a thumb on one hand. It looked really weird. He was from the Ukraine, we would see him at the ukrainian catholic church just down the road where we went to by perogies every wednesday. He was in charge of the raffle tickets. He told me stories about the war and such. Then he would give me old/broken toys and my sister slightly used/dirty stuffed animals. Kinda weird but oddly charming. He had a friend he would always hang out with, often he would quack like a duck. We called him ‘Duckman’.

comixxxxxxxxxxxxx

realized all those x’s can be interpreted as ‘porno related’. this message is not supposed to be that way. I usually express exuberance through additional consonants.

Either way, think it’s rad you like Comics and all because you seem all socially well adjusted and such and I guess in a way ‘defy the stereotype’ that comic readers don’t shower/are mouth breathers/drool/etc.

Are you familiar with any of Chris Ware’s work? He’s by far my favorite comic author/artist and I basically always end up talking with everyone about him. I think it’s because I secretly feel I don’t know enough about comics and try to start the comic related convos ‘guns a blazin’ in order that people think I know what I’m talking about. I don’t, I studied german, linguistics, music and russian, so nothing where I feel as though I possess the tools to ‘analyze and/or discuss art while feeling I am well informed’.

I guess basically this message can be summed up that I think you seem/are pretty rad via your internet profile and wouldn’t mind having an ‘online dialogue’. Think we could probably be internet friends or something. sorry if this message is creepy/sends chills up your spine, it wasn’t the intention.

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could you please tell me what library of congress film features boxing cats, I think I’d like to see cats box. I wonder if it is how I imagine

(No subject)

not being able to ride a bike is a little bit sad, and I’m sure you’re more than capable. Not sure if the e in your name is long or short, my education always causing me to overthink these things.

(No subject)

not tall, not tall by any means, but most certainly intrigued by your knowledge of languages I have limited experience with/in.

Actually reminds me of something I considered while composing what is supposed to be my profile in other languages. Did you also feel kinda lame/sorta like a douche/just a little pretentious when doing so? Kinda feel like that maybe people will interpret it too much as ’showing off’.

Is Austin as cool as it’s supposed to be? Am I missing out on significant cultural experiences because I have my American home base in a different city? Is texas as insane as the stereotypes perpetuate?

In fact, the only people I know who’ve spent a considerable amount of time in Texas are Russians who were there on exchange programs, they tended to stay in small towns, feel like their perspectives could be warped.

scrabble

If I were currently anywhere near philadelphia, I would totally challenge you to scrabble, and it would be very competitive.

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So why would a lady like yourself from the other side of the country view my profile. Sorta wish you had messaged or ‘winked’ at me (ironically of course). Sorry if I don’t send you pictures of my penis, I know you want them but this computer doesn’t have bluetooth (lol).

I like international travel too. in fact, I am currently writing this message from a hostel in Warsaw, Poland. No lie, I promise.

I’m actually really happy that my knowledge of russian has allowed me to be able to pretty accurately read things here. It’s helpful in restaurants and supermarkets. Also helpful when trying to order food from sweet old ladies in these things called ‘milk bars’. The name makes me think of a clockwork orange.

This message is sort of a disaster. Think you look cute in your pix, think that’s the point. Think it would be nice to talk to you on the internet. I guess you get to decide via responding/not responding.

(No subject)

I’m really trying to think of something relatively clever to say, being that your profile has revealed to me that you’re apparently ‘very selective’ when it comes to responding to messages. I get hesitant when it comes to those, think it means that you get tons of messages and then don’t respond to most of them. I think this way because when one doesn’t receive messages back from people one finds interesting it ends up being a small blow to one’s self esteem….or something like that.

So why I decided to get in touch with you…. I guess I would have to admit it was the somewhat extremely descriptive passage about your sexual tendencies, I am a human and male after all. Also the idea that you like brains and are an artist and like things ‘beyond your corner of the world’. I like things like that too. As far as the internet is concerned, we could at least be pretty good friends. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

I’m going to go ahead and say that I think it’s funny that I’m currently messaging you from a hostel in Warsaw, Poland. I also think it’s ridiculous that I even continue to use OKcupid while I’m not living in Philly , or even america for that matter. I guess I’m attempting to line up some sort of ‘good date’ for when I return in august. Also probably because the site is kinda fun.

I think we probably like similar books. Probably similar music. I don’t really know enough about art to claim similarity in taste there but I do enjoy it. I’d like to think you appreciate comic books (the good ones). I hope that you like cheesy sci-f i flicks in addition to apocalyptic ones. I’m thinking Zardoz or Plan 9 from outer space. I guess to put it simply, I think that establishing a dialogue with you is a good idea. Hopefully you agree and find me cool/interesting/not creepy.

I wanted to see what my messages looked like outside the context of a dating website. Upon rereading/reflection, they all seem to be kinda weird/borderline creepy [maybe it's just my embarrassment].

Can you tell which ones did/did not get responses?

this was really the best street view I could find.....

This is Hatfield, Pennsylvania.

Nestled in the southeastern corner of the state, Hatfield boasted a population of around 2,500 and covered a total area of 0.6 square miles. The folks there enjoyed a peaceful, simple suburban life. There was a wal-mart, a mall, and many popular chain stores nearby. Hatfield was also home to the somewhat famous meatpacking/hot dog company. Often people affectionately referred to the town as ‘the home of the smiling porker’ in reference to the meatpacking factory’s logo (although they recently changed it to this ‘sunshine thing‘ in order to draw attention away from all the ‘pig killing’ they do). On warm, sunny days, it was possible to smell the meat rendering plant from as far as two miles away. It wasn’t a pleasant smell, but it smelled like home. Children (like myself) enjoyed growing up in this town (actually the town over, but close enough).

this pig is happy cause he has a death wish

The town was not as young as most would think, incorporated in 1898. So, in 1998, in order to celebrate their centennial, Hatfield decided to manufacture commerative sweatshirts. These boasted a fancy design featuring a train in three vibrant colors: red, yellow, and black. The design was so nice that it maybe could have been the town seal, but I’m not actually sure about that. The people went crazy for the sweatshirts, almost everyone in town had one, including one of my parents (not sure if mom, or dad, but I know there was one in my house growing up). Everyone proudly wore their hatfield borough shirts in the streets, declaring their undying love for the town. Of course, the sweatshirts also loved the attention bestowed upon them, and took it upon themselves to be as bright and beautiful as they knew how. All but one, of course.

memorize that blurry sign, questions later

This one sweatshirt had greater aspirations, he wanted to travel, to see the world, and to become something more that just a commemerative sweatshirt. So, late at night, he decided to sneak out of the sweatshirt storage facility and stole away on a boat headed for a distant land/country/continent.

This is where the tale gets uncertain. But this we know: for many years, the sweatshirt traveled all over the globe, visiting many sights and seeing many things. Even though he was made of a strong 50/50 poly-cotton blend, he began to become weary of traveling, and decided it was time to settle down. He made the decision that the next place he would stop would be his resting place. He waiting until the next stop on his train, and exited onto the platform. The problem was, the signage was in a strange language/alphabet he didn’t understand, he tried desperately, but he couldn’t make the words out.TOMCK? WTF? HOW DO U SAY TOMCK? TOMK?

the C is an S, silly sweatshirt.

He approached a sly looking man, and asked him ‘could you plz tell me where I am?’ the man looked at him and said ‘Смотри! Он умеет говорить!’ and snatched the sweatshirt into a bag and stole away with him into the night.

The next thing the sweatshirt knew, he found himself in a strange place with other clothing from bygone eras. He hoped that someone there would be able to understand him. He asked a backpack next to him, who replied in a strong German accent ‘You are in Siberia, Ver it iz wery cold. Ze willage is called Tomsk.’ The sweatshirt barely had time to react, when a pair of hands snatched him off the shelf. He noticed the hands were soft and delicate with dainty fingers. Then a soft, melodic voice washed over him, it sounded much like the man at the train station but much more pleasant. He felt happy and content, and didn’t even notice being stuffed into a bag and taken elsewhere.

He awoke to find himself being worn on the torso of a girl, who treated him very kindly. She wore her newfound sweatshirt with pride, and everyone admired her, for it was such a lovely sweatshirt. So lovely, that it caught the eye of a young gentleman in the hallway, who happened to be born in the next town over so long ago. He approached her and asked ‘where did you find this sweatshirt?’, to which she replied ‘In a second-hand store, of course.’ He then explained that this was a small town, a very small town next to where he was born in the suburbs of Pennsylvania, and that seeing this sweatshirt so far from that town was quite remarkable. He was so flabbergasted by the notion that he asked her if he could take a picture in order to remember this moment, and she obliged.

Effin' blew my mind

(PS- I honestly can’t believe that this really happened, can’t believe that somehow that sweatshirt somehow made it all the way from Hatfield, PA to Tomsk, Russia.)

It was probably the most absurd thing that I had seen/heard in a while, the ‘DJ’ in this Warsaw basement bar was making a ‘shicka-shicka’ sound into the microphone in rhythm to the music, in what appeared a very lame attempt at beatboxing along with the music. At that point I wondered two things: a.) did he actually think that it sounded good? and b.) why on earth did he decide that the best sound to use in order to accompany the music was a half-assed maraca? Looking at K and the Australian and the other Australian they all seemed to agree, and we all imitated him and laughed.

K and I had arrived in Poland the day previous via train from Berlin. The train ride had been essentially uneventful, in fact there we didn’t even know that we had crossed the border until we were startled awake by a man yelling at us in a language we didn’t understand (GDE PRSYZYWSYZYSYZY?) In fact, this was the first country I had been in a long time where I felt utterly incapable in the native language, so I felt a little timid as we exited the train into the concrete monolith that is the Warsaw main train station. I surely felt intimidated.

These fears disappeared quickly, though as soon as we realized that Polish sounded a hell of a lot like Russian, just with more ‘sh’ and ‘zh’ and ‘dz’ shoved in there for good measure. We could read signs. I’m sure I baffled more than one Polish citizen when they would ask me a question in Polish and I would reply in English, not knowing how to otherwise.

Warsaw is not a super interesting city, very soviet/industrial looking towards the center complete with an additional ‘sister’ type building in the middle looking very much like its Moscovian counterparts. But tucked away near the river is the old city, mostly rebuilt after the war. I was absolutely charmed by the lights/xmas/new year’s feelings in the air.

stalin wuz here

see how pretty? old city Warsaw

But we weren’t there just for tourism, we were on a quest to eat at one of the fated ‘milk bars’ that we had heard about.

What is a milk bar (Mleczny Bar)? At first I thought of the popular image conjured up by multiple viewings of A Clockwork Orange, but this is not the case whatsoever. I guess the best way to describe it would be a small cafeteria type thing. What I mean by that is that it’s a small place usually very spartanly decorated in the most charmingly post-soviet fashion that serves food and drink for really cheap prices. The food is simple, but delicious and satisfying. You can basically get soup, a main course, and a coffee for something like 5 dollars. Even better is the diverse clientele, everyone from students to old ladies to single mothers to workers are there.

luv u milk bar in warsaw

Even better, no one who works there speaks any English, being that these places are not the usual tourist magnets. So K and I found ourselves hilariously struggling with the language at the counter. Luckily a lot of the food words are the same or at least recognizable. We got our orders out, were served our food, and say down to eat a delicious meal.

Why Milk Bar? This is not based in any actual fact, but my belief is that they are called milk bars because they are supposed to be the antithesis to ‘beer bars’. At least in Russian, the traditional word for bar is actually the adjectival form of the word beer, so I wouldn’t be surprised if Polish had a similar archaic form (everyone just says ‘bar’ now). Also, in a lot of the Slavic literature I’ve read, it seems that milk is considered the cultural antithesis of beer. Thus I decided that they are called milk bars to distinguish them as the opposite of a beer bar, meaning that they are for real food and nutrition and not for getting drunk.

nothing like a good gulash w/buckwheat

I also now see the presence of a milk bar in A Clockwork Orange as an additional reference to Slavic culture in the novel, beyond the extensive use of Russian words to make up their ’slang’. Feel smarter/more cultured now.

I could be completely wrong. It could make for a good thesis though.

For additional understanding, read Too Loud a Solitude by Bohumil Hrabal/watch A Clockwork Orange again

luv this book

thnx behindthehype.com/stanley kubrick

Anyway, after lying on my bed for two and some hours while the album streamed I decided that I liked it very much. I also thought it would be funny to sort of review the album (but in reality “poop out words“) while listening to the album in its entirety.

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“It’s listeners like you that make this possible”—Genius. I feel like this is the best way of saying “give us money”.

“Easy”—Easy, Easy. I think alot about this song because I’ve already streamed this a bunch of times and what have you. I’m already wondering if I’m going to be able to do it. Drums came in. What is the deal with the bass drums on this record? They are  very deep. I’ve lost the grasp of what this song is doing but that may be because I don’t really know what I’m talking about. I need to have a cigarette soon. I may smoke an illicit cigarette out of my window. Wait is this a piano song or a harp song? “Tell me your worries, I want to be told”. I should probably be doing something more useful like figuring out my possible identity theft sitch. This song is beautifully arranged. I guess that’s not surprising. It’s pretty sweet when the drums kick in. Damn this song is long . Wonder if I’m going be able to keep this blogging thing up when I start working or whatever. This music sounds very ‘American’, like ‘American Classical Composer’. Newsom went to college for composition I think. On facebook again I need to make an event or something. Sweet piano decay.

“Have One On Me”—Holy Harp! Don’t get the ‘daddy long legs thing’. In the night, in the night. Back. There’s a big black spinder hangin’ over my door, can’t go anywhere. Not really surprised. I already have a feeling that this is not going to go really well. Why am I doing this. More recordings should have oboe and bassoon. I played bassoon in high school. I should have gone for that. I was going to go outside today but I’m tired. Hearing Newsom’s overdubbed harmonies unnerves me; her vibrato is very very controlled. What else could I be doing today? How many listens willit take to have a grasp of these songs? I have trouble figuring out where I am in  general.

“”81″—I get confused because Newsom is “redefining pop”. This music comes from a different tradition, something more formal —it’s inflected by the blues or whatever but it’s not built on the blues, it has a different starting point (classical music, broadly writ?) but it’s being packaged as pop. Like, dig the Newsom’s press shot (below),

Seems like when Jewel got sexy or something like that.

“Good Intentions Paving Company”—Sweet song name! I think this is the song that was streaming from Drag City’s site in the week or so before Have On Me came out. Here come the multitracked vibrato’d out harmonies come in. She’s a little Diva Like here. When will Joanna Newsom appear on VH1. I think this is the song that made everyone think, “oh fuck what happened to her voice, it’s all normal now”. Read: concession to pop packaging maybe. Some people probably see this as selling out to an extent. When will Good Intentions Paving Company soundtrack a Chevy commercial? As I’ve gotten older I’ve lost my veneer of vague anarcho-leftist sympathies and now await the day when I can make an assload of money selling a song to British Petroleum or maybe Shell. It’s really too bad; what became of me. It’s hard to listen to a real artist. I wonder if Newsom has been approached for some kind of endorsement deal. Like, I bet she could get a sweet harp endorsement—but only if Yamaha can convince her to switch to their wood laminate composite harp product (with lasers!).

“No Provenance”—The bass drum sounds huge. It must be one of those really big ones that orchestras use. I just realized this. The turnaround in this song is great. Some winds interject and you find yourself in a totally different part. I would like to see what Newsom’s writing process is like. Oboe! Back to the head. And the turnaround turns you to a little new bit and back to the head. The horns are becoming more and more insistent; now there is less harp. I would really like to see this live. I wonder how they recorded this. I wonder of Newsom would assent to a click track. What would it have been like to be the shitty dude who Newsom dated in High School/College. No Provenance. I remember first hearing about her from a Chuck Klosterman article; he said something like, “Her voice is so awesome. I would be disappointed if she turned out to be attractive. I hope her face looks like melted cheese.” I guess he was hoping for a Susan Boyle.

“Baby Birch”—This song is big-upped on NPR:

I suggest trying the song “Baby Birch.” Texturally, it’s one of the most compelling tracks on a record with a lot of orchestral adventures. This song, however, has more textural counterpoint, with an edgy electric guitar appearing alongside Newsom’s harp. That electric guitar is performed by Ryan Francesconi, and he’s also playing acoustic guitar, Bulgarian tambura (long-necked lute) banjo, mandolin and soprano recorder — and that’s just on the one song. Francesconi did the arrangements and conducting on the record, though Newsom wrote her own harp and vocal arrangements.

My buddy was like, “she uses texture- like three times in the paragraph”

I suggest trying the song “Baby Birch.” Texturally, it’s one of the most compelling tracks on a record with a lot of orchestral adventures. This song, however, has more textural counterpoint, with an edgy electric guitar appearing alongside Newsom’s harp. That electric guitar is performed by Ryan Francesconi, and he’s also playing acoustic guitar, Bulgarian tambura (long-necked lute) banjo, mandolin and soprano recorder — and that’s just on the one song. Francesconi did the arrangements and conducting on the record, though Newsom wrote her own harp and vocal arrangements.

Notes: Ha! Edgy electric guitar! I’m not sure how the writer means ‘edgy’ but I agree in one sense. The guitar in the track is a lot of edge and no body; like it’s transparent. It cuts through the track but doesn’t overwhelm it. Not sure if it’s ‘edgy’ as in ‘hard core’.The paragraph moves on to impress reader with the overdubbing feats of Ryan

What the fuck the stream just stopped. Now listening track by track. Dammit.

Francesconi. I guess this is sort of like NPR explaining music to the masses. The tone of, “That electric guitar is performed by Ryan Francesconi, and he’s also playing acoustic guitar, Bulgarian tambura (long-necked lute) banjo, mandolin and soprano recorder — and that’s just on the one song”, just seems so terribly NPR and I don’t know why—what is it to be ’so terribly NPR’? Condescension in the air. Let’s see when NPR said in their “First Listen” treatment of the Dirty Projectors’ most recent album, Bitte Orca.

The members of Dirty Projectors have a well-earned reputation for dismantling standard melodic forms and chord structures and rearranging the elements until they no longer resemble the kinds of songs most people are used to hearing. The result is idiosyncratic and complex, but it’s also the sort of musical thrill ride that some listeners won’t enjoy. Still, love it or hate it, it’s hard not to be impressed with what Dirty Projectors’ members have accomplished. Bitte Orca is awe-inspiringly executed and marked by sparkling imagination.

I’m using this quote because there was no paragraph in the Bitte Orca article serving the same function as the “Baby Birch” paragraph in the Have One On Me article—e.g. a song analysis with production notes. Both articles, however, do address the fact the albums are difficult/out there.

Actually, I’ll rephrase that: You must hear “Have One on Me” when you’re ready for a musical adventure. This isn’t casual listening, and while that’s usually code for “This record is hard to get through,” this isn’t a difficult record.

“On A Good Day”—Oh my that was a shorty.

“You and Me Bess”—Sometimes I think that part of the reward of listening to difficult music is that it makes you feel good about yourself for having listened to difficult music. I think it’s a status thing. It’s what separates us from the mouth breathers. The value of the music is not in the music. Well it sort of is. But I feel like we might be doing musicians a disservice, treating them like t-shirts or silly/non functional eyewear. Sometimes I wonder if I even like music. How do you like music? Is music cool because it’s good or good because it’s cool or both because ornaments your alternative or mainstream life?

“In California”—Sweet triplet bassline or whatever. Didn’t Vampire Weekend release a song about California? Vampire Weekend is a good example of the point sort of outlined above. But whatever. I hear it is douchey to defend Vampire Weekend but is it douchey to attack attacking Vampire Weekend because it’s 1) fashionable and 2) easy? Let the matter pass over in silence I guess. Every song on this album is very good to great.

“Jackrabbits”—Noticing that hi brow contemporary ‘pop’ (or ‘conceptual-core’?) tends to involve extended song forms and complex percussion. They tend to evince a sophisticated grasp of harmony/mastery of some stringed instrument as well as several other instruments. Some rely on electronics (Grizzly Bear, Animal Collective, Panda Bear) and  animal names while grounding them in some alternate -folk universe. Seems like most conceptual projects tend to employ synths, electronic drums, samplers. I get this feeling to the extent that I feel like picking up a guitar without plugging into at least 2 Line6 delays is a waste of time. I would group Newsom into the genre of ‘hi brow contemporary pop’ (or hbcp; or hubcap) but she clearly isn’t a pedal player.

“Go Long”—Starting to lose it. Newsom’s hubcap is probably borne out of her mix of formal music training and ‘pop sensibility’. I don’t like this song.

“Occident”—This song is much better than “Go Long”. Reading Street Boners and TV Carnage.

“Soft As Chalk”—This article is pretty extreme. Also gchatting about band practice tonight. Fuck. The piano songs are good. Sucked into the Google Reader hole.

“Esme”—The end is near. Damn near exhausted. Ok, back on task. It’s a beautiful town / with the rain comin’ down. I feel very calm now writing this though before I felt very anxious/afraid about doing this. This album is a good album for lazing, it’s controlled, it’s placid. My impressions may change with a lyrics sheet. I feel similarly to this album as I do Vashti Bunyan’s Just Another Diamond Day. That’s an easy/fashionable comparison but I’d like to compare them for their calming effects. When I was writing papers in Philadelphia in my room and it was very cold, Just Another Diamond Day was like a cup of hot cocoa. I also used to find Testbild’s Imagine A House incredibly calming. My then girlfriend bought it for me, and when I panicked after her leaving for school, Imagine A House was just about the only thing that allowed me to sleep. I was still at home and I didn’t hang out with anybody and I secretly smoked but didn’t drink.

“Autumn”—Something about this song tells me, “you are near the end of the album”.  “Autumn” reminds me of “Go Long” but with a better melody. Or something. No, fuck that – they are totally different songs. “Autumn” sounds ‘big’. I think it’s all the strings and maybe some more reverb overall. The word might be ‘epic’; ‘epic’ like seeing a full string section’s bowing arms playing all at the same time so the orchestra looks like unified organism.

“Ribbon Bows”—I think you ought to read a Great American Novel while listening to this album. Last time I listened to Have One On Me was lying down reading Sometimes A Great Notion. The minor turn in this song was very good. Would listen again. Also. I just checked my Bandcamp account, which offers a statistical break down of how many people listened to which songs and whether they listened to the whole song or not. I sort of like the feature but am afraid that I’m going to end up ‘focus grouping’ the songs.

“Kingfisher” “Does Not Suffice”—Second to last song. Wondering if I should embed the NPR stream here. Holy shit that sudden fade out of her voice before the fiddle solo rocks. Weird noise loop at the end? Sweet. Oh what the fuck. Clicking on “Kingfisher” and then “Does Not Suffice” on NPR’s player yield the same song. What the fuck is this? Really? “Kingfisher” seems to be missing.

What an ending! That’s all folks!

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Post your own in the comments!

I was looking for photos that may or may not have been lost in the great ibook meltdown of 2009. Specifically these pictures were taken by me a little more than a year ago when I first visited Seattle meaning to write an article about it, a travel narrative. That didn’t work out; the article didn’t get published, and somewhere along the line I forgot to put all the pictures on my external hard drive. Perhaps I had? I didn’t really know so I did some poking around. Using spotlight, I queried my antique external hard drive for ‘photo’, which yielded pictures of my ex I wish I didn’t still have. I tried ‘Seattle’ and got to a folder with notes I took during the trip. I tried ‘.jpg’ and found photos I had forgotten about and some I had never known to exist. The photos I was looking for are probably gone forever.

(from top to bottom)

Mercer Street, Fishtown, Philadelphia. The ‘NO NO PARKING’ sign makes more sense if you know that the sidewalk in front of that fence is sinking.

The Bell Tower, Temple University, Philadelphia. Every Friday this douche would come out to the Bell Tower and scream about Jesus while painting these pictures. I asked my ultra Catholic friend (he’s in seminary now!) what he thought of this guy. My friend said that some people are more concerned with showing off their faith than actually worshiping God.

The El, Kensington, Philadelphia. I waiting for the train, the sun was going down. I love Kensington.

Danger Danger Gallery. I went to see Blues Control because they were opening before Growing and my friend was really into Growing. I wanted to see Blues Control because I saw them listed on Kurt Vile’s myspace as an influence.

The Bathhouse, Hicks Street. My roommate was filming in the kitchen; filming in the kitchen involved placing high-wattage light underneath the green mystery fiber awning that spanned our ‘backyard’. Did not know the awning was translucent.

???. Upon looking at the file path for these two, I figured that they must be on the Adobe staff or something. But what are they on my computer?

???. I think this is in India.

Union Carbide (Dow) Factory, Bhopal, India. This is just inside the gates of the factory responsible for one of the worst industrial disasters ever. On December 3 1984, a shit ton of Toxic Fucking Gas escaped from the site, killing 8,000 outright. 25,000 have died ‘to date’ thanks to the long term poisoning of Bhopal’s water / nasty shit everywhere (via). The site hasn’t been cleaned up. The victims were the sort of people that would end up living close to a pesticides plant, e.g. they were / are ‘poor as fuck’. Perhaps it’s not a surprise, then that little to no action has been taken to punish those responsible for this incident or to help those still affected. Except for these guys. Or, rather, NGO / Activist intervention have been substituted for an actual corporate or government response. Also this:

I went to Bhopal trying to gain access to the factory. It didn’t really work out but there was this kid that followed me into the first set of gates (before the checkpoint / police men’s card club); I asked him if I could take his picture.

Some Hotel, Diu. Sarah got very, very sick multiple times during her stay in India.

Raj Mahal, Dhangadra. Sarah with dogs. This was the courtyard where we slept during the first weeks of our stay, when it was totally hot ass summer and not at all wet ass monsoon. The dogs were the palace’s resident strays.

Rah Mahal, Dhangadra. Leah and…totally forget his name. Damn. They are on a motorcycle.

Some city in India.

Fairmont (sort of), Philadelphia. Tiff decided to be me for Halloween. I took it as a testament to the strength of my personal brand.

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There are no fewer than six of these videos from the last two olympees from Russia, and each one is performed by and reflects a culture/language within Russia other than Russian. I figured this space would be a good one upon which to ‘review’ each one and ‘discuss my feelings with the blogosphere/twitterverse’. Also saw this as a way to expose all you ignorant jerks to other cultures and to ‘open your eyes’ to new ethnic styles to integrate into future buzzbands you might create. Who knows?

Before listening, I suggest you listen to the original version as a ‘control’. Trying to keep things scientific here.

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Background: This first video is from the republic of Karelia, a section of Russia that’s really far north and west. For all of you in Seattle, imagine St. Petersburg as Seattle, and then Karelia being that part between Seattle and Canada you probably don’t really care about. But then imagine you did care about it, that’s kinda like Karelia to Russia. Actually, Karelia caused a lot of trouble in Russian-Finnish history, to the point where Finland and Russia secretly had their own war while everyone else was fighting WWII. The language spoken in this area (Karelian) is actually a Finno-Ugric language, meaning that it’s a lot more like Finnish than Russian.

Reaction: Seems like this culture really likes dulcimers, or at least has a large cultural stake in them. Looks like their cultural accoutrements include chef’s hats and native American style beading things. These people look ‘more Scandinavian’ than Russian. Also I feel as though they may have made the choice to include enough ‘attractive Karelian babes’ to show that there are hot babes even above the artic circle. Also seems that these people are super happy even though they live in a place where control has changed a whole bunch of times in the last century. Wonder if the color maroon has any cultural significance.

Background: This one is by the Mordovins, a group that lives kinda near the center of the European section of Russia. They speak a language that is Finno-Volgaic, which means they are Uralic (like Ural mountains, the ones that separate Europe from Asia). People think these languages came from there, but they’re not sure. Due to the proximity to central Asia, there has also been a strong Turkic influence on their culture.

Reaction: I feel like this version of the song sounds more exotic cause of the reeded flute things. Feel like this version has more of a beat, almost makes me also kinda want to dance all snakey like [via women in video]. Feel like the hats that the women are wearing are really big. I also feel like these women are supposed to come off as sexy, I think they do an okay job. The costumes are neat, like the beadwork.

Seems like to be a man in this culture you have to be ‘kinda chubby with a wispy mullet type haircut and beard’. Feel like this video was probably prerecorded due to the stark instruments in recording to instruments present in video ratio. I feel that if Chuck Norris were to be a member of any Russian ethnic culture, this would be the one he’d pick [via style choices].

Also don’t understand how a melodica is an ‘ethnic Mordovin instrument’, seems like instruments don’t fit in these videos unless they’re made of wood/real animal skins (on drums). Feel like it takes away from the authenticity. If I were a Olympic culture judge I would deduct 2-6 points from this team’s score for lack of authenticity/misrepresentation of ethnic instrumentation.

Background: The Bashkirs are from the region in Russia known as Bashkortostan, which is in the southeast section of the European part of Russia. They are also a Turkic people. Their language is closely related to that of the Tatars (we’ll get to them later.) They also traditionally are into beekeeping.

Reaction: This is the video that to me seems the most like a ‘power metal ballad’. The singers/bandmembers are standing on what appears to be a massive important monument, gesting to the vast beyond that they, indeed, are the champions. This band reminds me of other great powermetal greats like Manowar. I feel as though this groups personal interpretation of the lyrics leans in the direction of ‘we are the champions through our great deeds/might/chivalry’ as opposed to other videos where it seems like everyone just wants to say ‘we are all champions’. Feel like these guys are trying to prove how awesome they are through ‘dad oriented’ metal (read: Chickenfoot)/modern instrumentation.

The contrast of the ethnic shiny costumes (seem to like vests) and the modern equip (KORG triton, fendy strat) seems to remind the viewer how we need to look to/remember the past, while still embracing the future. Think that this could be the culture to set down its oral tradition on iPads/cloud computing.

I do feel like the one guy with bad teeth/non electric instrument sticks out/sorta looks outdated. Proud of him, though, for truly sticking to his roots.

Background: These are the Tatars, they have a sauce named after them (albeit spelled the bastardized French way Tartar) and they are also from a similar region as the last two groups I’ve discussed. They are also a Turkic people and also have their own language. These guys were originally nomadic, and originally from farther east, but they got all snapped up by Ghengis Khan and moved west as members of his army.

Reaction: OMG. I AM MOVED. It seems as though these guys had significantly higher production costs than the other videos thus far [via so many camera angles/focus tricks/movement etc]. This group is also huge, like a Russian ethnic version of the Polyphonic Spree/Broken Social Scene. Everyone looks so inspired, I find myself completely convinced that we are indeed the champions. Everybody is singing and beautiful and happy. The harmonies all rise together and the mix gets ‘really big’. Really nail the ‘key change’. Showed this to a friend, she commented it filled her with an ‘inexplicable joy’. I have to agree. Feel like this is maybe the ‘glo-fi/chillwave’ version of these songs (chill beat). Could even be the end to a ‘big broadyway show’.

Even the ‘Rain stick gal’ looks really into her job.

The costumes look ‘really real’. I like the matching fur hats (bros) and the weird hair shiny tie things/minihats (grrlz). Seems like they also picked the most talented/hottest ethnic babes/bros for this one. I feel as though they went through significant pains to give a really authentic experience. Real folky looking instruments everywhere (minus u tambo, ur made of blue plastic.)

Even the electric bass has an authentic Russian folk instrument shape.

Think the Mouth/Jew Harp is a nice touch, love how she plays it with ‘real culture style and poise’ instead of just ‘flicking it when she needs to’.

Background: These guys are what we call ‘Altaic’, meaning that they come from the region referred to as Altai. This region is basically on the border (well, actually is) with Mongolia, and therefore the people have a very central Asian culture. Even just like the more famous Tuvans next door, The Altaic tribes also have a form of throat singing.

Reaction: Feel like this is the saddest version thus far, seems to me like I’m hearing ‘the cry of a people’. Like their culture is dying and they are the champions of it in that they are surviving and spreading its style via youtube videos. Maybe ‘survivor’ by destiny’s child would have made a better choice (but would have removed it from the running for this post.

Feel like the keyboard is drowning out the ‘real Altaic instruments’. Feel that all the dudes ‘throat singing’ are drowning out the main singer woman. Maybe they are trying to communicate a ‘drowning out’ of Russian ethnic culture (sad style + modern instrument drowning out others + throat singers drowning out main singer + river that can literally ‘drown people’/things). Feel like maybe this version actually communicates more meaning than the others. Does the mouth harp in this one ‘feel sadder’?

Not sure if I like the pre-chorus, seems like everyone is just ‘making noise at the same time’. Does this guy get a different, furrier hat because he’s the leader? The roles here seem really blurred.

Background: This last video is the Yakuts, who live in one of the coldest places on earth. In fact, the capital of their region, Yakutsk, is actually ‘the coldest city on earth’. Also of Turkic origin, these people are known throughout Russia for their reindeer herding, and no, I’m not lying.

Reaction: WHOA Ice palace, feel like they’re really trying to hammer the ‘we live in a really cold place point home’. Feel like mouth harps must be some sort of trend in Turkic culture/music cause this one also begins with one. But her style is different, adding some ‘mouth effects’ to it. This coupled with the dripping water sounds after gives a feel of ‘frozen nature’ or like ‘frozen things coming to life’.

Think it’s interesting how they decide to divide the verses. The first verse is very soft and caressing, and the singer actually caresses the ice as she sings (sorta weird). Then the second verse is taken by the man who ‘adds some grit n pain’ to the song while sitting all alone in his ice palace. It’s like she’s the yin to his yang, the ‘solace’ to his ‘pain’. But then he seems to ‘break through’ and find strength and ‘rise above’ at the end of the verse. Feel like this culture is probably ‘really male dominated’.

Anyway, as y’all might know already the press thing didn’t happen but I did get him to submit some poems as well as a third person bio to RPP, and decided to interview him when he sent me a tweet or something (I don’t remember and sort of tried to find the tweet but couldn’t really so I gave up) saying I should interview him.

Rub Paw Press: So, Drew. Tell me about yourself.

Drew: I don’t know what to say. I go to college and I write poems. I’m eating gummy bears and watching speed skating and there’s a leak in my bedroom wall right now. It’s hard to describe yourself sometimes.

Is it harder to describe yourself right now that it usually is? Does this have anything to do with the leak in your wall? Why is there a leak in your wall?

It’s hard generalizing about myself. It’s never accurate. People can’t accurately describe themselves without outside help. I don’t know; it’s a pain in the ass is all.

As for the leak.

I have no idea why it exists. It’s this little stream of water that runs down my wall and into the floorboards and warps them. So far it hasn’t done any actual damage. Mostly just annoying. But it’s in the shape of an inverted cross, which is unsettling. The landlord had someone shovel our roof so it stopped for the time being.

Oh yeah! Did you get snowed in or anything? Is it chaos in the streets of Philly?

We got about two or three feet I guess. I was amazed though. Nothing shut down. People still wandered the streets, even in the blizzard conditions. It was great. Walking down the middle of a usually-busy street covered in snow and random people with shovels feels post-apocalyptic and great. One guy I found dropped his keys in the snow. He was frantically brushing around for them. I helped him for a minute. We didn’t find them, I felt bad for him. That story seemed so much more interesting at the time.

Sounds really really shitty. Wonder what happened to his keys.

There’s two feet of snow out there. Some cat probably burrowed down and ate them. The cats around here eat anything.

Are there a lot of cats out there? Are you living in North Philly?

Yeah I’m in North Philly. Plenty of strays, they’re all frightening, I want to capture one and name it Beatrice and keep it in our basement but I hate cats and won’t..

Hahah. How does your education equip you for the job?

What job, catching cats?

Sure.

It doesn’t. I don’t learn practical things as an English major. All I learn is that ‘Beatrice’ is a Dante reference which is useless in real life situations unless you’re trying to impress people. Which I am.

Hmm.

I probably shouldn’t shit on being an English major. I’m not, it’s just, I’m very aware of the difficulties of studying literature with regards to assimilating into the workforce. I love Capitalism and can’t wait to be a worker.

What are you planning on doing? This is your last year, right?

No I still have another year. I plan on getting an MFA and hopefully some school will hire me to teach their students how to write the words in correct order, it’s my dream.

Sounds sweet. Brb.

Yeah it would be a sweet gig. Molding young minds into creating their feelings into words through my methods. Ok.

Back. I used to think that I would do that

What happened?

Not sure if I read or write enough. I think of the folks over at HTMLGiant for example and feel outclassed. Also. Not sure if I believe in MFA anymore. Don’t know. It’s a commitment issue.

I understand that. I feel those things too, but I’m pretty set in what I want to do and can’t imagine finding something else. I’m awful at finding jobs so I feel like I would fit in with the academia. HTMLGiant used to be much less intimidating, more irreverent and fun but it changed. Not necessarily a bad change, just a lean toward the more serious I think.

When did that happen?

I don’t know, it was pretty gradual. Started out with just a few contributors then exploded in popularity and here we are. But I’m glad it exists, it’s a really good ‘hub’ for small presses and small press discussion.

Speaking of which. Sort of. What are you working on right now?

A few things. I recently finished a manuscript I’m calling BURLY. BURLY is weird, it’s a weird length, I have no idea what to do with it but it’s done. I wrote maybe 80% of a novella based on a poetry sequence I wrote a few months ago, I haven’t had any desire to work on it lately though, so we’ll see where that goes. Two other poetry manuscripts are coming along. Just constantly churning out the poems, revising, etc.

Would you like to share any?

Sure. I’ll paste some things from BURLY. Also: the last section from BURLY is posted on www.pangurbanparty.com and is called NATIONAL MOVEMENT. Here are three poems from BURLY in the order they appear

PUBERTY AS SELF-EXPRESSION

My hands full of cancer
and you in my cuticles
with a chainsaw.

Kelsey,
I tied myself to your high school’s boiler.

The stench of melted rubber and
acne is lodged in my crotch.

You dig in my gut with a trench-shovel.
You shotgun
my car like a jockey.

The doors we lay on,
the knobs we slob and slave and rot
leave in the morning.

Sometimes you are a bathroom
in a bathroom suit,

sometimes you are the gunk between tiles
wrapped in a towel.

Sometimes you are a pair of undeveloped
voiceboxes and stained sweaters
marinating in a sink of dirty dishes.

WHY HE SHUTS DOORS, WHY HE OPENS

I smell trashcans and barbiturates.

*

The lacy bra locked under
your deskspace
strangles
his legs like a horse.

*

Horus opens doors.

Horus opens Doris

for the rest of us.

*

His sporting teams touch each other
with love letters.

*

I am a mammal standing over an orifice
waiting for water to flush.

*

I want the hallway
open and giggling with echoes

of less dramatic forms of shellfish.

INTERVIEW WITH KELSEY’S DOORMAN

Q: Your feet are tied to a tiger. Do you run?

A: My toes are digging into his fur.

Q: Are you the prince of your own parietal?

A: I have glass in my diaphragm and it is difficult to balance without laughing. In short, I have no lobes to speak of, no curdled grey cheese to rot with.

Q: Do your body parts fit? Can she smell them? Will you get tired of interchangeable legs and dried dirty scalps? Should you?

A: Kelsey watches me breathe sulfur in my shower.

Awesome!

Thanks

What would you describe as your greatest achievement to date?

I really don’t know. My chapbook with dogzplot.com’s chapbook series was really exciting for me, I was really happy. Barry Graham put that out and he’s great. I was excited to get THEATER on Scantily Clad Press’s site, there’s some good stuff on there. I don’t know. I have a series coming out with www.linelinelineline.com soon that I’m excited about. I’m excited about everything apparently.

That’s very exciting!

Fuck

What?

Nothing; got logged off for a moment I think. What’s the last thing you typed?

I like exclamation marks, I tried to use them in some poems but they felt really weird and wrong and I had to kill them. But Christine Schutt uses them really well in ‘A Day, A Night, Another Day, Summer’.

Ah. I didn’t get that. Yeah. They are very powerful. I think it changes the tone greatly. I feel like there’s like a chortle or giggle at the end of a sentence that’s punctuated with ‘!’

That’s an interesting way of looking at it. Chortle, good word, I don’t know. Exclamation marks always make me think of cheerleaders thrown into the air waving their pom-poms really fast and screaming about football, which can be really powerful if you drop the cheerleader but that seems hard to do.

What is? Dropping the cheerleader?

That was a really unnecessarily complex metaphor. The cheerleader is the cliché aspect of the exclamation mark. The idea is, you want to retain all that waving and shaking and screaming without the cliché. So you need to acknowledge it almost, embrace it, let it hit the ground and go with it. I can’t do that, but some people can.

Is that what you are trying to do?

No I gave up on that, I couldn’t do it. I killed all my exclamation marks. BURLY was full of them for awhile but not anymore.

Oh no!

Exactly, but you need more nudity to really underscore it. Nudity goes well with an exclamation mark.

Nudity in the way that you write?

BURLY has a lot of nudity in it, but I don’t think explicitly. Then again I had to get rid of the exclamation marks so maybe I’m totally wrong and nudity is boring after all.

What is nudity for you? What is it to be nude?

Bodily nudity, lacking in clothing. The literal nudity. But also the way in which people treat nudity is interesting, the way in which people think of nudity. But mostly, I think nudity is just funny.

That’s funny. I did not know you meant nudity literally as in “people without clothing”. Maybe because you were talking about literary nudity. Rather, I thought you were talking about some kind of literary nudity but you were talking about nudity literally. I need to get my head out of my ass. Next question.

It’s ok. This interview will get so many hits just from the mention of nudity in any context. Win win.

NUDE ; TEEN ; SEX ; NUDE

YOUNG TEEN NUDE BOOBS BREASTS

BREASTS SPILLING OUT INTO THE STREET LIKE HAIL ; TEEN ; TITS ; GAY ; STRAIGHT ; MMF

BBW ORAL ORAL ORAL. I think that covers most fetishes?

I think we missed cuckold / CTB / CFNM / ATM / S&M / BDSM / N’SYNC

HENTAI TENTACLE-MONSTER TENTACLES SCHOOL GIRL RAPE

DRUNK PARTY COEDS

My favorite. I ACCIDENTALLY saw one of those co-ed party porn videos, where the girl has sex with the guy in a big crowd of drunk college kids, and I always wondered what that crowd was thinking. I mean literally, the thoughts in their head. ‘Man this is hot.’ ‘I wish I had a camera.’ ‘I wonder what time it is.’ ‘She looks like my sister, this rules.’

That is a good question. Here is another: How do you handle criticism?

I welcome it, I need it. Criticism helps me a lot. I mean, I know what I aim for in any given poem but the way in which others view any given poem is radically different from the way I view it. So to get a feel for how something comes across, I need criticism. I don’t have many ‘readers’ for my work before I finish it, though I wish I did.

Hm. I have one more question for you I guess. What is the toughest part of your job?

Job being as a writer of words?

Sure. Whichever job you care most about.

I guess in theory my job is being a student. Hardest part of being a student: focus. I lack focus. As a writer, I think the hardest part is networking, making contacts and friends and sending my work out. I’m awful at finding the right place for my work, I just don’t know where to send it, what places are open and looking. I need to make more friends I guess. Who knows.

Have you heard of Spooky Boyfriend?

Yeah I’ve seen some stuff on there, I like it. I actually have meant to send stuff there in the past.

They seem pretty neat

A good aesthetic I think, similar to Robot Melon in some respects.

I haven’t heard of them. I will check them out.

It’s good; you’ll like it.

Sweet.

Done?

Yeah I guess.

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